"I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day."

Like a general novice writer my thoughts are not organised. I always deviate from the main topic. Also, I don't have agility to embellish my manuscript. So, most of you would find it oscitant. I also lack aplomb of stage. Those punctilious eyes, searching for even smallest errors, scare me. You must be thinking that my opprobrium is rather harsh and the guy is frustrated with his weaknesses. But i admit that you all are corrct. But I find ways to convince myself that I'm not that bad. In case of my inability to perform on stage I say to myself that I can't rape the audience as others do. One of my good freind remarked me "why do you contempt yourself?" but i just can't stop this. "The Almighty" had created this being similar to extremly powerfull Herculese, He-man, other successfull orators and conqueres of public attention. But I have ruined his creation. I have created many mental blockages for myself. I can't do this, I can't do that. Al...

After having ambivalent feeling for more than two years, I gave the writer within a final call and decided to pen down my thoughts. I got inspiration from my friends who are regular to this space and use it effectively for epressing their thoughts.But the biggest doubt i had was tht who is going to read my blogs. But the benefits associated with this activity overtook this underlying problem.After having cultivated the habit of reading in myself in these two years,it was essential to pour out somewhere this gained knowledge . And these blogs are the best place to express my views as for now I can't sit with pen and dairy in my hand. The time spent on internet has almost crippled me. Now I've started forgetting hoe to write with pen.My fingers now know only how to type,not how to hold pen and paper. I would try to be regular to this space and this is not like new year resolution as its for my own personal development. Hope I've not irritated you,the readers most probably on...